This won't be pretty.

Welcome!

Ok so the title says this wont be pretty and well.. it won't.
BUT...

I am a real person and while you book me cause I'm fun, I laugh.. I may take pictures too.. OH and I Dougie. I'm still a real person.

It's almost 365 days since the husband left to go to Korea. In those 365 days I've stayed strong, grown as a photographer, a mother, a person. I haven't really let anyone see me fall and to be honest I havent fallen hard.. (except for last Friday when I sprained my ankle.. but we wont talk about that).
Today though the list of things I wanted to do was so long and so daunting that I couldn't categorize where I needed to start or even see a light at the end of the tunnel.
I needed to wear so many hats today.. one of mother, one of maid, one of photographer, one of wife, one of business owner. Usually I can wear one hat for a few take it off put on the next one and get it all done. Yet todayI needed to wear all the hats at the same time! Well apparently when you combine all the hats, they magically turn  into the "crybaby" hat. So this day today I was a cry baby.. I cried at everything. It was like my body was on a mission to loose all the water it had retained.

So here I am , its the end of the day.. Ive taken off most hats and put my work one on by its self and I am getting stuff done. I try not to think of all the things on the list I didn't get accomplished because in the end of the day I have to realize I'm just one person.

I tell you all this.. (you know my 5 readers) cause whether you are a mom, a bride-to-be a fellow photog.. we all try to wear an insane amount of hats and if you find yourself like me today crying to your best friend who lives a million miles away.. you might remember this post and go " I totally know what she was going through". It may make you smile to know you aren't alone and its ok to be a cry baby! I'm owning my cry baby and in 14 days at 10:30pm I'll be another cry baby.. the best part is though it'll be in my husbands arms and he will wipe my tears and say, " I can help you Monday- Saturday, all you need,... but you better stock up on Kleenex cause Sunday is football and you ll need to put your hats back on!"