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Grab your cup of joe and join me for a moment....

Morning! Well for me it feels like I never truly went to sleep, but here I am having my coffee watching last nights shows. As we have established TV is part of the daily for me! I am not sure what it is but I love the stories and the laughs. I like reality shows because they posses no inkling of what reality is. I like bridezillas and rock of love because when it is over I feel like a Rock Star!

One of my favorite shows though is Brothers and Sisters. If you don't have Sunday nights with the Walker family I highly suggest inviting them over. Now I am fully aware they aren't real but for one hour I feel like the problems they go through, the joys they have, the pain, the love and the loss, I feel they write it for me.

I grew up as an only child, though this has changed recently (long story) but I watch this family and sometimes wish i could have those great big family Thanksgiving dinners. You know Jay and I all old, well Jay is old, I'll always be young! The kids bring their spouses, their children. We have wine (I don't drink it now but i figure when Jay gets older (cause I wont age) I might start to be sophisticated). Anywho I can see all this and it is so fabulous, the laughter and smiles of family. One problem: I only have two kiddos, I don't think my table will quite fill up the way it does in my head. It is than, in this fleeting moment I think we ,Jay and I, should have more kids. You know fill all the spaces at the dining table. Oh it looks so good in my head! All of us grown, a big large family...it's kinda awesome!

But...
Just than...
I have a flashback....

It's Saturday morning here, Jay is gone playing solider in Korea, it's me and them.
It's my own little world of playing solider!
They are at that table I want to fill.
They are eating breakfast. It's going ok.
 Until
someone starts whining stop,
someone starts laughing,
someone starts screaming STOP,
someone laughs so hard milk comes out of her nose!
 Now someone is laughing at the one who is covered in milk all over her face.
The rest plays out in slo-mo....
milk covered is up out of her chair...
she is going for the others bowl of rice crispys...
her plan is to add a little Snap, Crackle, POP, to her wardrobe for the day...
she goes to grab the bowl but has forgotten how keen the little one is,
the little one pulls her hair...
the bowl is up in the air....
I can see the milk spilling out...
I can hear the scream from the hair pulling...
I can see the dog waiting for the bowl to land...
and after that the slo-mo ends.
Two girls are crying, the dog is licking up milk and crispys, the just mopped floor is sticky and there in the midst I see the two empty chairs I wanted to fill at the table, they are empty, quiet, not sticky, whining or crying. It is than I realize why the Walker family drinks.....

Their chairs were FULL!

                                        The smiles are due to them plotting each others demise.