Day 4

It's a STEP in the right direction!

I was having some major "what the heck do I write about today?", issues! It was bad enough I slept most of the day away. I honestly hadn't done a thing. Normally I wouldn't feel bad about this, but NOW I have an audience. I was feeling the pressure.
Than I got a instant message from Jay. He said he was going to the gym. A few thoughts went through my mind...first..RIGHT ON! He will be coming back all sexy like! Second...I am glad he is finding things to do and than with that thought I went, Oh no, he is finding things to do! How the heck is this happening? He is there, riding his bike, going to the gym and finishing school. Me.. yeah well I am sleeping in till noon! This looks bad!
With that I turned off America's Got Talent and headed to the garage. There I located my step aerobics stuff and weights. I brought them in the house and set them in the general direction of the tv. Than the phone rang. I was momentarily detained with phone calls and gossip. I sat back down ignoring the big blue step in the living room and cheered on the little opera singer. I realized I had not eaten yet but it was almost time to get the girls off the bus. Whats a girl to do? Ohhh I have fabulous little cupcakes, that will do! I loaded up the dog and off we went to get the crazies off the bus.
I had every intention of coming home and putting this body well on it's road to a Gisele look alike. I realized though that cupcake did nothing to change my need for substance so I made a perfectly healthy snack.
Now it's five o' clock. Dinner, bath, bedtimes and Project Runway are awaiting me. So I have come to terms with Jay and his go-getter attitude and realized I am just one person and digging through the garage was all the workout this married, single mom was getting today. There is always tomorrow. I mean even Gisele can't do it everyday...right? Don't answer that...I am going with the fact that some days she eats a cupcake too!

Some days it's about the intention and Not the action!